XI

 

Thoughts have no temperature…

an idea is only as exciting

as the horse it rides.

 

The heart’s the measure, not the mind.

 

The bee and the swallow and the cirrus

are in league

a league of late summer evenings

packing trunk for the next term at school

at the end of the Summer hols.

 

Now, by the light of the Leonid showers, the sharp winds blow down from the snowfields, bathing in November-moon’s frozen lamp, dusting ice along the ridges that

only days ago

were echoing

to beech’s gold & birch’s brown.

 

 

Holiness, always, is in everything beyond, reached only in languages that court & do not possess –

control, articulation: always our greatest weaknesses –

we have dominated, not danced with

our fellow travellers in time.

The bee and the swallow and the cirrus and

eternity

are in league.

 

The heart’s the measure, not the mind.

 

 

An ocean came

and took away my voice.

There is a music in the light of things

as filled with silences and space

as any coloured forms

are facetted

with well-pitched planes and angles, set

to tempt the word-smith mind both into, and

away from grace.

These rhythms inhabit me

and speak with clarity

beyond all hope of concept’s reach.

Light, rhythm, silence, space,

enjoined as joy

in me.

 

 

The architecture of absolute nothingness; that

the material world may indeed be

an artefact of

something for which there

is no physically certain being

since forms themselves, like space and

time, are relations, rhythms, compulsions

architecture of no known

possibility

the description of which

in the desiccated language of

Science simply leads us further from

that which seers have known

in the language of unknowing.

 

And have we ever wondered why it is

that Science powers technology so

faultlessly and yet

fails the spirit so utterly?

That its descriptive language is

a selection only of the pieces that fit

a mechanistic mind – that it’s a tool

which manipulates brilliantly, but which

actually UNDERSTANDS NOTHING:

a source of great power that drives

the chess pieces of our evolutionary

game, that makes no difference

to that moment

between our lonely walking

self and the far horizon over low-tide

when wind first chills.

 

But the humming busy air or the endless spray

the surging blood knocking the heart all over

its silly kennel

the wild

immensity

of even the tiniest corner of

a summer’s evening

here is a tumult

in the pine needles

as wind and hail rocket by

that soars

that moves us with a touch that though it

could be explained,

cannot be taken back

by explanation,

because its real truth is

awe, & comfort,

& incomprehension.

 

 

 

Ultramarine ash is the painter’s colour, the true spirit of risen silver in the ocean’s halo, as spray-topped ranks of sun-touched waves roll forward under the soaking fringes of cloud:

shadows and rays,

swell and counter-swell

criss-crossed with a maze

of foam and light

shadows and rays

over swell and silver blaze

the sea is so young

its moods passing quick & clear

as a child’s eyes

its urge innocent

and perpetual,

beautiful and soulful

and lost in its own ways;

are we, in our spirits,

not creatures of the sea?

 

 

Standing fortresses

ranked ancient as any on earth,

the great granite stacks shelve backward

in retreat that is aeons old & aeons slow

the land is full of history, generations

compile their marks,

this is what we know, and where we are.

In grooves and hollows, dust of our

small bones makes soil enough for the coming

blooms.

 

Caught between hill and wave we try to dance

our spirit on the sand, making marks in the

sea’s way – but tide’s encroachment

licks the prints away

and we, in our hearts, as in our bodies,

are creatures of the land.

 

But still the spirit persists – Canute, Cahulain, Quixote

 

For I have touched the heart

the living tremor

shaking, singing,

pulsing in all

 

& its swirling

turbulence

is the movement of oceans

and aeons,

the land as the sea

as an eyelash confused

by a sun flash

 

the touch of this spirit

is the touch of love,

there is no kindness

there is no embrace,

no mother’s words or

rock-like father’s arm

has love like this

its gift

lifts

into light of the soul

all which we

otherwise mangle with the mind

for there is madness,

hard, frightening, cold-bred terror

in the ownership of everything

through the conspiracy of

language

where words are strung together

like nooses

to ensnare

thruths

which exist always

beyond comprehension

 

OUT THERE HERE WHERE

 

& all around

 

 

for wisdom, beauty, spirit

are not accumulations are they

 

but the sounds we have

when noises stop

 

& what we make

or do

- our dance –

is all the better for its directness &

purity

for dance we must

 

& all our great edifices of

ideas, of information,

our piles of culture & comment

history & heritage –

they’re all

only insecurities

because we’re scared, when the

noises stop,

that we may not hear the

music,

that the tune may be weird

that Love may not be ours.

 

 

& So we go,

so elaborately so,

endlessly recycling our

own superfluities

& concreting over the trembling

gentle heart, which is our path to God.

 

 

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